Tag Archives: Diet
When Will it End?
I am sorry I have been gone so long. I don’t have much of a reason other than that of getting bogged down with life. But I am back now. Sometimes I let myself get swallowed up by the hope … Continue reading
What will be?
Is recovery inevitable like I make myself believe? Or is it a mysterious land that spurs me on to exist even though it is a beautiful place which I will never reach? I feel like I am waiting for life … Continue reading
I want to change. Can I change?
Sorry I haven’t posted for a while. Been ridiculously stressed out with exams plus the looming prospect of moving from one student house to another in less than a months time. Packing, cleaning, cramming revision, argument with bf, and letting … Continue reading
Take two.
I know you’ve heard this before; I too have heard this before. But that doesn’t mean I cannot try again, simply because I cannot carry on the way I have been. For a week now I have been eating my … Continue reading
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It’s that day I’ve been nervous of; ‘tomorrow’. I am, so far, so good. Touch wood. I decided to log what I ate yesterday on the forms for the ED people to see. I cannot hide my binges. It’s like … Continue reading
Rotting.
I am rotting, I am rotting My soul melts and fades Dissolved by thoughts of illness Killed by this mental plague I don’t know how to be strong When my walls are crumbling down I don’t know how to look … Continue reading
Failure.
It’s half three. I had a banana and some grapes for lunch. Then just now boiled eggs, but they were horrible. I knew I wouldn’t be eating again until about 8pm tonight and I cracked. Tomorrow really has to be … Continue reading
Goodbye.
Goobye my friend, my rival, You’ve almost beat me now. It’s time for me to leave you And find some hidden power. I’ll no longer be dominated Or devoured by your games You wreck my mind and body, You satiate … Continue reading
Challenge day!
It is day 14 of no binging and I am close to the 2 week mark, so what better time than to face up to a challenge? So the boyfriend (gets yet another mention!). His favourite cake/biscuit/whateveryouwanttocallit is Millionaire Shortbread. … Continue reading
Sinking ship
One thing I hate is waking up feeling afraid. I slept great last night for the first time in a while. But I awoke with this feeling of fear and dread. I guess after escaping the world and my thoughts, … Continue reading
Good Morning Bulimia 