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Am I Fighting an Incurable Disease?

Everyone know what it is like to feel crushed. I feel so f*cking crushed right now. Bulimia has won tonight. It is devouring every inch of me, I want to sink inside myself and shrivel up. I don’t particularly want … Continue reading

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Endless.

Where do I turn when all that face me are walls? Sometimes I pull the plug on my emotions so that I can live. Sometimes I tell myself I will fix it tomorrow even though I know that this leads … Continue reading

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What will be?

Is recovery inevitable like I make myself believe? Or is it a mysterious land that spurs me on to exist even though it is a beautiful place which I will never reach? I feel like I am waiting for life … Continue reading

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I don’t understand myself.

I find it bizarre how I tell myself I should be someone else. You can fault other people but you can’t change them. But surely the one person you can change is yourself? The one person you can rely on … Continue reading

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Believe in me one more time.

I need you to. Because I am losing faith in myself. Every time I think I have figured out what I am doing wrong I go and binge and throw myself off track. But I cannot do that again, this … Continue reading

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Cathartic.

I believe today was the last time I binged. I woke up, and reached for a chocolate granola bar by my bed. I spent that afternoon feeling sick and having cramps in my stomach, and fell asleep because I felt … Continue reading

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How?

I don’t know how to pretend I’m fine anymore. I’m not; I just thought maybe it’d be better if I woke up dead so I didn’t have to fight another day out with my own self today. Let alone the … Continue reading

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