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Promise.

Remember that dress you used to wear? Leopard shift and it made you so pretty Now it hangs alone, gathering dust Never again will you wear it aged twenty Things have changed now, that life’s gone For an illness has … Continue reading

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When Will it End?

I am sorry I have been gone so long. I don’t have much of a reason other than that of getting bogged down with life. But I am back now. Sometimes I let myself get swallowed up by the hope … Continue reading

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What will be?

Is recovery inevitable like I make myself believe? Or is it a mysterious land that spurs me on to exist even though it is a beautiful place which I will never reach? I feel like I am waiting for life … Continue reading

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Sorry for me, from me.

I am sick to death of feeling sorry for myself. I have it so good in life, I am so lucky, and I am constantly pitying myself for the fact I seem to struggle with eating, drinking (water!) and getting … Continue reading

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I won’t run.

I am having a struggle this morning. And it isn’t the usual; it isn’t that I want to binge. I made myself wake up relatively early (I want to get my sleeping pattern a bit more on track, I am … Continue reading

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Recovery – I am ready.

Today, was another day in the life of restriction. Well it was. Until it turned out to be hopefully the biggest turning point in nearly 4 years. I binged last night. Then before bed I poured apple juice over the … Continue reading

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As promised, the update.

It’s been such a **** day. Cravings have practically overridden it, thoughts of food. Of my shape, my weight, the way I look. But I haven’t binged. I broke down in tears this evening and nearly had a panic attack. … Continue reading

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