Tag Archives: Weight loss

A poem to my ED

What do you want with me you contagious, belittling bastard? Do you want to watch me cripple and crumble to the ground, In a heap of sheer desperation that is encaptured in your wrath Yet desperate to break free from … Continue reading

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Justifying an eating disorder.

I sometimes imagine what I would say to someone who told me I was pathetic for having bulimia, or who told me to stop being so weak. I try to imagine how I would justify scowling and letting the sun … Continue reading

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Bulimia

My paper has become the most healing, cathartic, valuable tool in my recovery. My followers. Comments. Support from all these people I have never even met. But sometimes nothing is enough. Love is not enough from those closest to me, … Continue reading

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Update

Recovery is going well. So well that I am feeling so positive that I struggle to write anything meaningful? Apparently that’s a problem real writers have when their emotional issues or depression lifts… they lose the ability to write. I … Continue reading

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Recovery tastes so damn sweet.

Eating 1540 whilst also working out (maybe slightly excessively but hardly). I feel incredible. I can’t believe I didn’t do this sooner. Is that what it’s like to feel normal? The eating disorder has almost become a creature inside me … Continue reading

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Believe in me one more time.

I need you to. Because I am losing faith in myself. Every time I think I have figured out what I am doing wrong I go and binge and throw myself off track. But I cannot do that again, this … Continue reading

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Recovering

I think I am getting better. I believe I am getting better. The past 3 days I have eaten 1540. I went to the gym the day before last and this morning I went for a run in the sunshine … Continue reading

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