Monthly Archives: April 2013

Prozac, mend me.

Ever watched Prozac Nation? I recommend it. I started it approx. 6 weeks ago now, and for the first 4 or so weeks it gave me terrible nausea. At one point I was waking up every night. I started to … Continue reading

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Nostalgic for a past I loathed.

I would be going about my day with hunger seeping through every inch of me. Bland foods fill me and I feel weak, bored, fed up. I am craving fattening junk food. Everyone knows the meaning of a craving and everyone has … Continue reading

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As promised, the update.

It’s been such a **** day. Cravings have practically overridden it, thoughts of food. Of my shape, my weight, the way I look. But I haven’t binged. I broke down in tears this evening and nearly had a panic attack. … Continue reading

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Blinded.

As the rather self-explanatory title suggests, I’m struggling. This probably won’t make for a very interesting read, but the first thing I thought of to try and tackle this urge to eat was writing a blog post. Didn’t sleep well; … Continue reading

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So far, so good.

Wednesday, it began. The diet. Actually day 1 was quite easy as I felt very sick most of the day, potentially due to exhaustion as I slept for 11 hours that night. It was the first day back at uni and I … Continue reading

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The final binge.

It’s a Tuesday afternoon. I am home alone. Normally I tell myself the diet will start tomorrow. But not this time; it is starting today. I’m also trying to get it into my head that this cannot and will not … Continue reading

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Long story short

Every day I tell myself tomorrow will be different. But what kind of a lifestyle is that? I tell myself I’ll be more confident, I’ll do everything right, I’ll be who I want to be, and most importantly I’ll be happy. But, … Continue reading

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