Tag Archives: Sick

Sorry for me, from me.

I am sick to death of feeling sorry for myself. I have it so good in life, I am so lucky, and I am constantly pitying myself for the fact I seem to struggle with eating, drinking (water!) and getting … Continue reading

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Well due for a positive post.

Wow. Finally something positive. Normally its two steps forward one step back but sometimes that feels like 1,000,000 steps forward and 999,999 steps back. But I am finally making a bit more progress. So I haven’t calorie counted for a … Continue reading

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Long Struggle

Sometimes this struggle feels like tis too much Sometimes all you want is to know when it’s going to end Because every day I tell myself it will end tomorrow, simply so that I can carry on, because if it … Continue reading

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I made myself sick.

But not for the purpose of buli. I was at bf’s last night and went to bed with stomach cramps. Then woke in the night feeling sick. I woke him and said I would go sit in the downstairs toilet … Continue reading

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Resistance.

I binged yesterday. “The final time”, I said. Here I am. Craving my drug. It’s gone midday and I still haven’t eaten. I’m not planning to just yet either. I cannot give in because as of today I have to monitor everything … Continue reading

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Where am I?

I don’t know if I am in a good place or a bad place. But at least I am somewhere between the two. So I guess things could be worse. I cried to bf last night on Skype. He said … Continue reading

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I loved you once.

When I knew not of conscience, But just knew of free will, My mind felt distant unity, Life was lived for thrill.   But I was just a child then, The world hadn’t played sick games, And now my mind … Continue reading

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