Tag Archives: Calories

I don’t understand myself.

I find it bizarre how I tell myself I should be someone else. You can fault other people but you can’t change them. But surely the one person you can change is yourself? The one person you can rely on … Continue reading

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My life is changing

I believe that tomorrow I will start to change my life. I know you’ve heard it before but there is something more to what I plan this time. Each time I think I have practically recovered, something else happens to … Continue reading

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A poem to my ED

What do you want with me you contagious, belittling bastard? Do you want to watch me cripple and crumble to the ground, In a heap of sheer desperation that is encaptured in your wrath Yet desperate to break free from … Continue reading

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Justifying an eating disorder.

I sometimes imagine what I would say to someone who told me I was pathetic for having bulimia, or who told me to stop being so weak. I try to imagine how I would justify scowling and letting the sun … Continue reading

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Bulimia

My paper has become the most healing, cathartic, valuable tool in my recovery. My followers. Comments. Support from all these people I have never even met. But sometimes nothing is enough. Love is not enough from those closest to me, … Continue reading

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Update

Recovery is going well. So well that I am feeling so positive that I struggle to write anything meaningful? Apparently that’s a problem real writers have when their emotional issues or depression lifts… they lose the ability to write. I … Continue reading

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Recovering

I think I am getting better. I believe I am getting better. The past 3 days I have eaten 1540. I went to the gym the day before last and this morning I went for a run in the sunshine … Continue reading

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