Tag Archives: struggle

I don’t understand myself.

I find it bizarre how I tell myself I should be someone else. You can fault other people but you can’t change them. But surely the one person you can change is yourself? The one person you can rely on … Continue reading

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Fighting for a nonexistent victory

I remember when my eating disorder used to be my life. I used to love it, to cherish it, I was proud of it. Each day it helped me achieve by getting skinnier and skinnier, eating less and less, conquering … Continue reading

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Well due for a positive post.

Wow. Finally something positive. Normally its two steps forward one step back but sometimes that feels like 1,000,000 steps forward and 999,999 steps back. But I am finally making a bit more progress. So I haven’t calorie counted for a … Continue reading

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Long Struggle

Sometimes this struggle feels like tis too much Sometimes all you want is to know when it’s going to end Because every day I tell myself it will end tomorrow, simply so that I can carry on, because if it … Continue reading

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One of Those Days…

One of those days where it feels like I am trying to swim through ice. Cold, painful, but most importantly, immobile. I woke up and tried to mask my dread at tackling the day. I ate breakfast and did some … Continue reading

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Having a really bad day.

It’s only 12:22. I woke up late and had no motivation despite a very busy day ahead. All I wanted to do was binge. Went for a run… *forced* myself. Started my recovery scrapbook to try to convince myself this … Continue reading

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Positive? Negative? Neutral.

I am not happy. I am not sad. I am however scared but when am I not scared of everything in life? I am happy because it is my last week of lectures this week. Then I can go home … Continue reading

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