Tag Archives: depression

When Will it End?

I am sorry I have been gone so long. I don’t have much of a reason other than that of getting bogged down with life. But I am back now. Sometimes I let myself get swallowed up by the hope … Continue reading

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Am I Fighting an Incurable Disease?

Everyone know what it is like to feel crushed. I feel so f*cking crushed right now. Bulimia has won tonight. It is devouring every inch of me, I want to sink inside myself and shrivel up. I don’t particularly want … Continue reading

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Endless.

Where do I turn when all that face me are walls? Sometimes I pull the plug on my emotions so that I can live. Sometimes I tell myself I will fix it tomorrow even though I know that this leads … Continue reading

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Fighting for a nonexistent victory

I remember when my eating disorder used to be my life. I used to love it, to cherish it, I was proud of it. Each day it helped me achieve by getting skinnier and skinnier, eating less and less, conquering … Continue reading

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Long Struggle

Sometimes this struggle feels like tis too much Sometimes all you want is to know when it’s going to end Because every day I tell myself it will end tomorrow, simply so that I can carry on, because if it … Continue reading

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I’ll be who you dreamed I would be

When I was just a little girl I envisaged who I wanted to be She was pretty and smart and funny But she most certainly wasn’t ‘me’ . Because I am a woman at war Not in unity with my … Continue reading

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How?

I don’t know how to pretend I’m fine anymore. I’m not; I just thought maybe it’d be better if I woke up dead so I didn’t have to fight another day out with my own self today. Let alone the … Continue reading

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