Tag Archives: Weight loss

Cathartic.

I believe today was the last time I binged. I woke up, and reached for a chocolate granola bar by my bed. I spent that afternoon feeling sick and having cramps in my stomach, and fell asleep because I felt … Continue reading

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Recovery – I am ready.

Today, was another day in the life of restriction. Well it was. Until it turned out to be hopefully the biggest turning point in nearly 4 years. I binged last night. Then before bed I poured apple juice over the … Continue reading

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Battered

The waves crash me and bound me Slap me and crown me In flickers of glorious shame I hate what I do and I hate who I am And bulimia is all I can blame But who is this monster … Continue reading

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I want to change. Can I change?

Sorry I haven’t posted for a while. Been ridiculously stressed out with exams plus the looming prospect of moving from one student house to another in less than a months time. Packing, cleaning, cramming revision, argument with bf, and letting … Continue reading

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I just want you to understand.

People who have never had an eating disorder simply cannot understand They can try they’re best but will never truly get it. And this isn’t a criticism; I didn’t understand before I had one, what would compell you to do … Continue reading

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It’s that day I’ve been nervous of; ‘tomorrow’. I am, so far, so good. Touch wood. I decided to log what I ate yesterday on the forms for the ED people to see. I cannot hide my binges. It’s like … Continue reading

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Failure.

It’s half three. I had a banana and some grapes for lunch. Then just now boiled eggs, but they were horrible. I knew I wouldn’t be eating again until about 8pm tonight and I cracked. Tomorrow really has to be … Continue reading

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