Tag Archives: recovery

I don’t understand myself.

I find it bizarre how I tell myself I should be someone else. You can fault other people but you can’t change them. But surely the one person you can change is yourself? The one person you can rely on … Continue reading

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Sorry for me, from me.

I am sick to death of feeling sorry for myself. I have it so good in life, I am so lucky, and I am constantly pitying myself for the fact I seem to struggle with eating, drinking (water!) and getting … Continue reading

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Well due for a positive post.

Wow. Finally something positive. Normally its two steps forward one step back but sometimes that feels like 1,000,000 steps forward and 999,999 steps back. But I am finally making a bit more progress. So I haven’t calorie counted for a … Continue reading

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Long Struggle

Sometimes this struggle feels like tis too much Sometimes all you want is to know when it’s going to end Because every day I tell myself it will end tomorrow, simply so that I can carry on, because if it … Continue reading

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Lost & Alone

How do you believe in yourself when all you ever do is prove yourself wrong? How do you tell yourself it will be okay when all you ever do is show yourself that actually it probably won’t? How do you … Continue reading

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My life is changing

I believe that tomorrow I will start to change my life. I know you’ve heard it before but there is something more to what I plan this time. Each time I think I have practically recovered, something else happens to … Continue reading

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Justifying an eating disorder.

I sometimes imagine what I would say to someone who told me I was pathetic for having bulimia, or who told me to stop being so weak. I try to imagine how I would justify scowling and letting the sun … Continue reading

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