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Long Struggle

Sometimes this struggle feels like tis too much Sometimes all you want is to know when it’s going to end Because every day I tell myself it will end tomorrow, simply so that I can carry on, because if it … Continue reading

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Lost & Alone

How do you believe in yourself when all you ever do is prove yourself wrong? How do you tell yourself it will be okay when all you ever do is show yourself that actually it probably won’t? How do you … Continue reading

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My life is changing

I believe that tomorrow I will start to change my life. I know you’ve heard it before but there is something more to what I plan this time. Each time I think I have practically recovered, something else happens to … Continue reading

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Justifying an eating disorder.

I sometimes imagine what I would say to someone who told me I was pathetic for having bulimia, or who told me to stop being so weak. I try to imagine how I would justify scowling and letting the sun … Continue reading

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Bulimia

My paper has become the most healing, cathartic, valuable tool in my recovery. My followers. Comments. Support from all these people I have never even met. But sometimes nothing is enough. Love is not enough from those closest to me, … Continue reading

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Update

Recovery is going well. So well that I am feeling so positive that I struggle to write anything meaningful? Apparently that’s a problem real writers have when their emotional issues or depression lifts… they lose the ability to write. I … Continue reading

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One of Those Days…

One of those days where it feels like I am trying to swim through ice. Cold, painful, but most importantly, immobile. I woke up and tried to mask my dread at tackling the day. I ate breakfast and did some … Continue reading

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Ready to try… Again

But most importantly, I am ready to try. I will try and keep this short and sweet because I want to sleep! Finished the mission I started about 2 or 3 weeks ago of clearing out my room. I even … Continue reading

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Freedom.

Freedom is the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint. For those of you who have never suffered an eating disorder, or those of you yet to recover, let me try and … Continue reading

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Recovery tastes so damn sweet.

Eating 1540 whilst also working out (maybe slightly excessively but hardly). I feel incredible. I can’t believe I didn’t do this sooner. Is that what it’s like to feel normal? The eating disorder has almost become a creature inside me … Continue reading

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